My personal problems
My problems :
1) i have a problem asking for help and do things on my own and mess it up hugely
2) i fear becoming this unimportant person or becoming the person whom people are going to make fun of
3) i say mean things or behave rudely without even realizing it
4) And i am just way too immature for my age !!
i really need help i am becoming insane
There is always a time in everyone's life where they need to find themselves. I think this is your time, you need to work on you and decide what type of person you want to be. You are aware of your behavior and if you think is wrong try to change it. You need to find self-love first instead of worrying if people will make fun of you. You need to be important to yourself first, don't worry about messing up things. mistakes happen in life just make sure you learn from those mistakes and if you know you cant do something by yourself there is nothing wrong with asking for help. You are in a crucial moment in life...write in a paper the type of person you want to be and the goals you have and find a reason to accomplish that. That reason must be so deep in your heart that no matter how many difficulties you face you will never give up because that reason will give you the power. I hope I helped... Good luck! :-)
I think you should find a way to get out into the world and travel. Experience other countries and cultures, expose yourself to the world. Now that you know what your problems are, can you ask yourself the question, why? - Why do you have a problem asking for help? why do you fear being seen as unimportant? - there is always some underlying experience that has led you to think this way - and what can you do about it to alter your habitual way of thinking? How you think and attitude, has everything to do with how you function day to day. If you're finding that these thoughts are hindering you from living your life, then investigate further, dig deeper.
It is good that you're self-ware enough to acknowledge those things about yourself, that is definitely a step in the right direction - The next step is taking some action towards changing your mentality about those 4 points. Like I said above, i think travelling would do you wonders.