When I got home that day, I put his name in my phone as “cute art boy”, I was telling my sisters about it and we were all kind of joking about it so the name wasn’t 100% serious. I vividly remember asking my sister what I should do because this boy was right here and just for a split moment I thought about ending everything I had with my boyfriend for this guy because it wouldn’t have been long distance. I hate myself for that. This art guy and I only talked for about three days before we stopped talking and I haven’t talked to him since. I don’t miss him and I never really liked him at all. I honestly just got caught up in the fact that he even talked to me at all and I let my emotions run loose for a moment, not completely thinking that I shouldn’t have even bothered talking to him at all. I completely forgot that it even happened until recently and it’s really bothering me because I love my boyfriend more than anything. He knows that this guy gave me his number but he doesn’t know about everything else. Anymore I avoid all guys and only talk to a few people besides my boyfriend, I’ve been loyal ever since we became really serious. I have never cheated on him nor would I ever do so but I feel so guilty about that one incident, I love him more than I’ve ever loved anything or anyone and I don’t want to ruin us. I just keep getting choked up over the fact that I thought the way I did during that moment and what I put that art boy in my phone as.
I guess what I am trying to cope with is whether or not I need to let this get to me as much as it is and what I should do. I would greatly appreciate another voice and input on this situation.
If you have decided at such a young age to not only limit your love life but to also limit your social life, it's going to be a real challenge.
No advice here- just an observation.
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