To me, I thought he was the one that would change my perspective, but turns out he's just like the rest I had confessed too. I felt I was careful this time, but I guess not. Life isn't fair, huh? Why does this always happen to me? All I want is someone to return their feelings, but I guess that's too much to ask. What do I do? I guess this is what they mean by me being......different.
You said, "but turns out he's just like the rest."
Is this a REPEATED situation for your relationships from the past?
Maybe just as simple as you choosing the wrong guys - or certain guys zoom in on gals who seem to attract emotionally unavailable or distant men.
How about seeing a counselor from your local women's center who can help sort all this out?