Why is being an adult so hard?
When I was in highschool, I was feeling really lost because I didn't know what I wanted to do in life or what course I wanted in college.
Graduation was only a few months away. My classmates already knew what they wanted so I was feeling more pressured.
Fastforward to years later, I graduated college with a bachelor's degree in IT. Contrary to my highschool graduation, I knew what I wanted to do next. Although things didn't really go the way I wanted to but.. I got my first job. Met good friends. Opportunities came.
I actually wanted to rest for a few months after grad but a job opportunity came so I grabbed it. After a year, I resigned and decided to get the rest that I wanted. I told myself that I'll only rest for a few months. But thats what happened.
The company that I was trying to go for is not hiring as of the moment. So I applied in different companies. I went to 2 interviews just the other day and I also had 1 last week. All of those interviews told me that they liked me. They like my personality but.. why do I feel like they're not going to hire me?
Right now, I'm feeling so useless. I realized that life wont always go the way you planned it. Dont expect too much. But you cant also NOT feel this way. Its impossible not to feel this way. Lately, I've been feeling so lethargic, depressed, not in the mood to do anything, I dont even want to talk to anyone.
Honestly, I just discovered this page just now and I just really wanted to share this. I dont care if this doesn't get any answers coz I just really really wanted to share my feelings and to let it out somehow.
*I told myself that I'll only rest for a few months. But thats not what happened.
It sounds like you have some depression that is interfering with your ability to feel happy and content with things. Have you talked with your doctor about antidepressants or sought counseling? The best advice I can give you (and I've been adulting for a long time) is to focus on what makes you happy and on bettering yourself--exercise, eat right, do what you enjoy... Also, make sure to put your best face forward when going on interviews. People are drawn to those with a smile and confidence! It will get better in time, you will find the job you were meant to have. Just hang in there!
Thanks. I've been trying to do those things but I also have other problems which hinders me from doing so. Actually, I've been helping taking care of my older brother for 1 year now coz he was involved in an accident that left him physically disabled from waist down. Its hard to do the things that you want to do when you have someone you need to take care of. I cant just think of myself. I have to also think about the people that will be affected with my decisions. Thats why I dont really know what to do anymore.
Me, My grandmother and my parents (mostly my Mom tho coz my parents are divorced) are taking care of my brother. But my Mom has work and she has another family already so she doesn't live with us. She just comes after work then she goes home. My Grandmother can only do certain things because of her age. So basically, I'm with my brother the whole time.
I'm 23. Second of 5 children. I have a younger brother who's 19 and a college dropout. He's useless. You cant even ask him a favor. He's also 'lost' coz he doesn't know what he wants to do. He's a VERY introverted person. And I also have 2 younger brothers who are 7 and 5 which I also look after.
I'm a girl and I have a boyfriend. He's been helping me cope up which is nice.
The 'rest' that I meant was like a short vacation from everything (life, people, problems) its like I still wasn't ready to face the 'professional' world yet.
I wasn't exactly looking for fun but more of a time for myself.
I guess the most difficult adult thing for me is just getting it together. Its like I dont really see myself being happy in life.
I already had plans as to what i wanted to do. But after what happened to my brother, my Mom told me that I was the only one she could rely on. That if something happens to her, She'll leave the responsibility to me. And that messed up my plans and so right now i dont really know what to do.
I'll try my best. I dont really know how but I guess I'll just have to see.
When everything gets better, I'll come back here and post updates.
Thank you so much.
I'm very close with my Mom. I understand her part also coz she has her own problems that she has to face. That's why whenever she asks me to look after my brothers I try to help but in the long run it became too much for me to handle.
Yes, the 7 and 5 year old brothers are my half brothers. Whenever she goes to work, she leaves them here with us. They have the financial capacity to hire a nanny but every nanny they hired only lasted for Months or weeks because they cant handle my Mom's boyfriend's personality (he's another problem; very toxic person).
That's why I'm also afraid or worried as to what would happen to them if ever I would leave the house.