Childhood issues & maintaining a relationship
Living with friends who had typical childhoods is making me look back at mine and get a bit angry.
I've been realising that my mother was emotionally abusive throughout my childhood and that this has come to affect me in certain ways.
I have no real friends as I moved around a lot as a child and now have issues making an effort with new people - so there's no one i can really talk to. My boyfriend just brushes over it when i try to speak to him -- he had a typical childhood so doesn't really have any idea of what to say.
The issue here is that i'm resentful of my mum. She called me horrible names since early childhood whenever we would argue -- 'bitch', 'nasty little cow' -- from the age of 6 i think. She would throw things at me during arguments, and really intimidate me by squaring up to me and screaming in my face. Now as an adult Im full of self-doubt and get anxious often.
I dont live at home anymore but i go back to visit my mum and siblings, and i love my mum, but i really resent her too and i do have a lot of stored up anger towards her.
I dont know how to keep her happy and mellow and get rid of my anger towards her - Any ideas anyone? :s
I think she might have narassistic traits , if you scearch on the internet it will come up.
I have a narc parent (my dad) and he was partially nasty to my brother and just reading through your thread,I think it would be a good idea to look it up! There is lots of info on the web to help.