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I can't smile

Posted by
M.I
on Feb 1 2019 at 11:12
Member since: 01 February 2019
Children & Young People advice So how should i start? Am 15 years old and i can't smile.I suffer from depression and social anxiety . Actually i have that from many years but this year i am more depressed than I've ever been.I cry constantly. think about suicide just as much. I consider my self pretty enough based on social acceptance аnd what people like. You would've guessed that i have lots of friends but i don't.I know that you don't need a lot of people to be happy and stuff but from a young age all I've ever wanted was to be liked. I was and I'am still nice to everybody i don't fight with anybody i help as much as i can and i would NEVER EVER HURT ANYONE ( physically оr mentally). I think that even my friends don't even like me ! That they are with me just because i help them and give them money when they need it. It's just so depressing to think .. no .. to know that everyone gust uses you and then trows you out like some garbage. to see that they do everything for each other but to refuse to help you when you really need help. That's not friendship i know am not that dumb but if im not with them i don't have anyone . AND I DON'T WANT TO BE ALONE.I WANT TO BE HAPPY.I WANT SOME RESPECT THAT'S ALL AM ASKING FOR!I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE TO SMILE...
I can't smile
Reply from
SUSIEDQQ
on Feb 1 2019 at 13:09
Member since: 27 December 2013
I’m sorry you feel like this! You sound like you feel immense pressure on yourself to meet the needs of other people - at the sacrifice of yourself.

That’s called co- dependency. (Google it)

The good news is that you recognize what is happening and want a way to change. (Bright person, you are!)

That’s going to involve talking to someone about your feelings. Would you be able to see a counselor?