Hi, just looking for some advice. Met a guy 18 months ago, started seeing him weekly as he worked in the City I work in but stayed far away so used to stay a few nights a week in a hotel. After about 6 months I was smitten and so was he - he said he loved me first.
Then the bombshell, he was in a relationship and had a child. I called it off, we never saw each other but stupidly he convinced me that I made him happier and all the usual.
Few months ago he told me he was depressed and had suicidal thoughts. I helped him as much as someone who isn’t really with someone can. I said would it be easier for him if I wasn’t in his life and I’d walk away as his health was more important and he said no, without me would be worse.
2 weeks ago I was on holiday and he had been texting as normal. Then he sends me a text saying his relationship is over, he wouldn’t tell me why. The texts went back and forward and then he said I’m sorry, meet me on the other side. I can’t go on, my time is up. I constantly called him and he wouldn’t answer. Since then his phone is off, hasn’t been on WhatsApp, snapchat. He doesn’t have Facebook. I’m at a loss as what to do.
I’m checking death notices daily, he was a contractor so I’m not sure where he was working. I’m praying that he has just ghosted me and if true well obviously never see him again. I just need to know if he is dead or not.
Sorry this is so long but the not knowing is killing me