Anyway, I just have this feeling like I could say I love you in that empty space of conversation and really mean it, and looking it up is sort of unhelpful but what I can find supports the thought.
I am happy when he’s happy and his smile is contagious for me. Around him I feel at peace, like all my troubles are, well I wouldn't say gone but a hundred times more dealable, like we can make it through this tough patch and end up together forever. I wouldn’t be uncomfortable or lying if I said I’m perfectly willing and happy to marry this boy someday. I seek every opportunity to be with him but I don’t flaunt his company to other people, I just want to make him happy, as well as that being around him makes me happy.
Is that what love is? Can I love him already even though we haven’t had a real relationship yet? We’ve never even had a real date or anything.