My marriage as been a toxic one. I regret the day I met and married him. Was looking through husbands history on his phone came across a site that sells perfume. It also showed a site for the news and another site which I can't remember what it was for. He told me he had not been on the perfume site and he as not bought perfume for another woman. Said someone is out to get him. He as said this in the past when I found dating websites in the history too. He is getting a new works phone and said he was looking up a new phone case on his works phone and in the history it shows other sites that he as not been after looking for the phone case so this is what happened with his own phone. Could it be true or not. Do other sites show up if you haven't been searching for them or are they there because you have been searching them. I think he as lost respect for me over the years because I have always been there for him and washed his clothes and cleaned the house. He says to leave it to him and eventually he will do it but I end up doing it like a fool I am. He as talked down to me. He ignored my phone calls when I wanted to talk to him about finding the perfume site and emailed me instead so I've had it with him and ready to throw on the towel
you should maybe look deeper into what really makes proof of someone cheating. but, if you do feel bad in your marriage and it’s taking away your youth i’m not saying to end it, but look deeper into the problem and work it out. also, trust him a little bit more. if you have no proofs of him lying to you you shouldn’t be so apprehensive about it.
I think the only possibility the perfume site could have been was an ad that sometimes pops up from different servers. It seems like there is little trust and also a lack of communication. Besides the perfume site, it seems emotionally he is not healthy for you.. I was so close to marrying a man I knew was terrible for me but I Loved him so deeply that it hurt. Life is short!! if you are having these underlying thoughts and you are not happy with him, first confront him in a mature serious manner and express your emotions, maybe try getting therapy and if that doesn't work you have to put you before him! it is your life too.