I don’t think I can take much more
Where do I begin? Am not having the best time right now; am eighteen years old (Male).
I’ve been single all my life and I want to be in a relationship with a nice girl but no one seems to find me attractive. I don’t know what am doing wrong. Like I just don’t understand it and it hurts my mental health so much!
When I was younger in school I would get called fat and ugly by most who I tried to talk to girl wise and it like changed me I suppose, because every time I get rejected now, that’s all I think about.
It also doesn’t help my confidence with the fact that my penis is on the smaller side. Like I just feel so insignificant and I don’t really class myself a man because of it. I also feel like this is holding me back mentally and I don’t know how to change it.
And recently, I just feel so alone, like I would stare out of my works window and just think to myself. “Why am I like this? Why do I have all this problems with myself? Why am I so alone? And why will no one ever love me?” It hurts both physically and mentally, like I get this somewhat sharp pain in my chest when this happens and when I sluggishly go through my day whilst everyone around me is having a better life than I feel like I could ever have.
The struggle’s getting a bit too much to bare with and I don’t know what to do. I want to be different, I want my life to get better but I don’t know how or if it’s even possible.
I don’t know what else to say other than am I too broken?
Because it feels like it everyday.
Thanks for reading if you did.
Very sorry to hear how down you are feeling. People can really be cruel, usually because they are extremely insecure regarding something about themselves. Don’t forget that “appearances” can be a very deceiving thing. The people that walk around seeming like their lives are amazing, could be facing their very own battles. Do not be so hard on yourself. There is someone out there for all of us in this life, sometimes you just have to be patient. You have so so much life ahead of you! And you can make it anything you want it to be. Be kind to yourself and I hope things get better.