Long distance relationship
Hello, so I know it is weird, but I have never met my boyfriend in real life. We met in a game and been friends for a year and after he asked me to be his girlfriend. So before Corona I had a trip to his country, but it got canceled. When I ask him if hes going to come he cant say any specifit time like in how many years we will see eachother because hes 18 and doesnt have his own money yet to fly and stay at my house.
We do not have any specific plans on living together for sure. I will go study in Germany and he will go to UK most likely. I have some plans on studying in UK as well, but I dont know yet. So this would mean that we would have to do ldr there too and I dont know if it is worth continuing this relationship anymore, because even now we started to talk not as much as before. I dont know why, but I dont think about him that much anymore, before I would even cry if we wouldnt talk for like 2 days, but now something changed. I mean we are both busier than before, but I dont think its supposed to be like this.
And I just asked him about studying in separate countries, he said we will see if we will when we get accepted into unis.
I'm sorry that you are confused...This is a "friend" not a boyfriend.
I think in the beginning when you were talking you saw a "potential" relationship and that is why when you didn't talk for 2 days you cried. Because you saw that potential. It does not seem possible that you will be together because of how you explain your schooling...and your schooling is important to your life..more important than someone you have never even met.
Look, it feels good to get attention from someone...to have someone to tell your daily issues to...your future dreams too...and you have that with him right now but that does not make him your boyfriend. It makes him your friend. You are thinking of him less because subconsciously you KNOW that it is almost impossible for you to be boyfriend and girlfriend in "real life".
I hope you can change your mindset of he and you to "friendship" instead of b/f....
You will have a boyfriend one day and you will look back at this and realize what it was...It is a moment in time...and you have a big promising life in front of you...
Its probably best that the COVID came and you didn't spend that money to go see him because you may have grown "physically" attached to him and things would be much more difficult for you right now as far as missing him....And now you don't have to deal with that.
Your going to be ok...but it is not likely that you will be with this particular person....So try and focus your mind back onto your life (of course stay his friend)...Maybe look on a dating site in your area? Get out..meet people...Some love will come...someday...but it is not him....I believe it is not him. I'm sorry.