I should just leave him...right?
His name's Eric he ignores me unless I'm with him even then he's on his phone. He's said/says mean and ugly things to me. He's always accusing me of lying and hiding things. I can't even go to my mom's without him tripping on me. I love him been with him for 4 years but it seems and feels like I don't matter to him at all anymore. I think I should leave him but then we end up together again.
First things first, there is someone out there that will treat you better than him. That is just facts. Him saying mean things to you when the bare minimum is for him to be kind to you is just crazy. He obviously does not trust you. And I know that you feel like you guys have been together for so long that you are probably used to being with him and you do not want to risk going into another relationship. You are better off without him. Take some time to yourself.
Yeah I know you are absolutely right. I just don't want to hurt more by leaving him, but I know that hurt will go away in time. I know he's never gonna change his ways.