I want to get back with my ex
So me and my ex (37) broke up nearly a year ago last November. I recently got back in contact after my birthday in august and my break up with my recent ex (26) of 4 months who I started seeing in April. Me and my ex (37) were together for two years but broke up briefly for 3 months where I started seeing another guy (39) before getting back together for 2 months when I told him to go back with his ex-wife last November. Me and my ex (37) broke up because he lied about his relationship with his ex-wife and about having children. When we first started seeing each other he told me he had a roommate but it turned out to be his ex-wife when she stayed over. He gave me her company car when she went on holiday without telling me it was hers. He always talked about his ex-wife. He left the room when she called or text, I always felt insecure about this. His wife would always message me about him staying at her house. I was always waiting for him to tell me he loved me before I told him. He once cut my dads grass too short and let me take the blame. When I found out he had children my mum told me not to tell my dad. I always felt he wanted to keep our relationship quiet. His ex-wife is toxic and cheated on him four times before we got together.
When I broke up with him in November he kept on pursuing me even though he was still with his wife. I went to see him at christmas because my car broke down and he is a maintenance guy on a mountain bike park. He tried to kiss me but I refused because he was still with his ex wife. Three months later I met this guy (26) who is a teacher, funny and really caring, he did everything for me. I felt we knew each other from the start but I told him all of this and he got insecure because he felt I wasn't over my ex. I left a bracelet at my exes house and asked for it back and my ex wanted me to pick it up but my boyfriend (26) felt uncomfortable and asked him to post it. Once I got the bracelet back I sent my ex (37) a message saying thank you with a love heart at the end and my boyfriend broke up with me because he saw it and felt I wasn't over him.
I liked my ex (37) because at the start he was so honest and I was in a bad place after I dropped out of university and my university boyfriend at the time cheated on me. My mum said I would be the girl he regrets. He has now broken up with his ex-wife and is trying to rekindle with me, he has started to like my pictures on instagram and I followed him back. He lives at one of his bosses cottages and works on a mountain bike park.
I know I posted this yesterday but it got removed, I really don't know what to do. Part of me wants to get back with him because his wife was toxic and bad for him.
This guy needs to sort his own life out before you can do any good for him. He's all 'over the shop' when it comes to his relationship with his ex wife, but he needs to be over her 100% before he can commit to you, never mind you partially wanting to be with him just because his ex is toxic. You can't fix that, he has to. This guy has lied to you from day one which tells you a lot about his character, and you need to ask yourself how can you be respected when, going by his actions, he has no respect for himself let alone anyone else.
What you need to fix is your own life and get back on track with your life goals and once you have that sorted, you will eventually meet and choose a guy who shares your values and standards and puts you first. You need to block this guy completely out of your life and get on with it without him dragging you down.