Not sure how I feel anymore
I have been with my partner 5 years we are expecting our first child together and we both have children from previous partners.
At the moment we both are happy about the baby and we seem to be bonded because of that.
But apart from that I sometimes wonder if he goes out of he actually seeing someone else
We are hardly intimate anymore and worry he will do something.
At the same time to escape my pain of feeling he doesn't love. I think about past lovers and use that to escape my hurt and pain.
I want us to do something this weekend so we just connect. We only seem to be connected because of our baby.
I do love him but not I am in love with him.
I just want to talk to him about my worries but he may go hear we go again. Should I try talking to him?
Sorry for the wait!
Reading that, what jumped out at me over everything, was this:
"I do love him but not I am in love with him."
As apart from what's wrong with him (clearly quite a bit) and his attitude (and, quite possibly, actions), I'd have to ask you - what about that statement of yours *doesn't* spell Game Over Already, Regardless?
(Also, how fair would it be to a baby-into-child, to bring them into a situation where, inevitably, it slowly-but-surely dawned on him/her that the only thing keeping you two together was THEM? Pressure, much?...of a magnitude no child's still-developing mind could bear the weight of and come away from, unscathed?)
Bar an agreement to co-parent amicably and cooperatively - or even stay close friends - romantically- and co-habitationally speaking, it's over, surely?