I feel like giving up!
My life is so shit at the moment it's unbelievable. Ordinarily I'm a positive person who loves being around people but lately especially at present I just feel like I've been tested to the last and can't take it anymore! In particular other people really piss me off; friends, family and my boss. I've been made redundant at work or more like my position has and I just don't have it in me to continue from hereon out. Everything in my life is such a struggle for me as I've never had it easy and I just don't think I have the strength nor engery to go on.
I've only been working here 5 months and have to leave even though I do enjoy it here and get along well with everyone because my boss is an incompetent business man and needs to hire a manager to run his company. And because the company is doing poorly financially he doesn't have the resources to pay both people. He also has a hag of an older girfriend at the company also who seems to take credit for everything I do! Also one of the guys working here tried to cheat on his girlfriend with me at the work xmas party even though it was only my 3rd month at the frickin company.
Even worse I still live at home because I'm in debt even though I pay my mother a substancial amount every week and pay all my own bills including food. Her other kids have no direction in life and put me down as well as she does because sometimes I can be bitchy due to the amount of stress I have to endure on a daily basis in a quest to make something of myself.
I just feel like there is no point struggling to find another job again when there's not much going on in my life anyway so as a result I'm doing poorly at interviews due to my newfoud lack of confidence and low self esteem something which was never a problem for me over the past few months. I also feel as if friends, family & people in general don't give a shit about me and are too self involved in their pathetic little mini-dramas to ever be realistic about anything so it doesn't really matter what I do or if I even exist...
I've tried living life for myself time and time again...but I'm just so sick of everyone messing me about when I certainly don't deserve it!
Sounds like you are having a really bad time at the moment, particularly with you being forced out of a job which you have just about settled into after 5 months.
If you consider your boss to be incompetent, then perhaps the change is something you need anyway, because you would probably be better off working with someone you can aspire to, and can expose you to good working practices rather than ineffective / inefficient approaches.
How crazy that must have been for that guy to hit on you like that, and having a girlfriend and that. Maybe he thought that you were an easy target, being new. Lucky you haven't got an evil streak, and told his girlfriend about this little episode!
Living at home isn't the end of the world, but I can see that you could probably benefit from some freedom. However, a lot of people have debts to pay off, and they have no choice in the matter.
It will be difficult for you to gain confidence in interviews if you have additional non-work related problems to contend with. You need to concentrate on what you are good at, and prepare the best you can in advance of any interviews you have. To be getting interviews even shows that you have something to offer the world, because you must be appealing to people on paper - just try not to disappoint them (or yourself), when you turn up for interview. I doubt that companies are interested in people who bring emotional baggage to the interview, so you need to block that out of your life just for an hour or so, so that you can think clearly, and convey your selling points, and act professionally.
We're here for you (in small numbers), but nevertheless you can talk freely here, without anyone judging you on your past, just let it spill out, and you will get the support you deserve...