Loving someone and letting go
Long story short: I had be involved with a guy for a year and had told him how I felt that I was in love with him, and the feeling was not mutual. At this point in my life, being 18 years old, I felt like I had nothing holding me back from moving from illinois to florida. I wanted to pursue my education there and I always knew I wanted to move to florida. We've kept in touch, and that was probably my biggest mistake to start with. Holding on makes it so much harder to move on. Of course after I move, acouple months later he tells me loves me and has all along. He said he was at a point in his life where he disnt know what he wanted and didnt want to hold me back. Fair enough. But now we are thousands of miles away. We try to shrug it off like bad timing and just go fourth with our lives with the attitude if we are meant to be itll work itself out. We continued to talk on a regular basis. It being two years since ive moved I visited him in April for a week. It was a great visit. Sparks were still there and then some. Theres no doubt we loved eachother. It was a hard goodbye. Weve gone through a lot together but now we both have our own lives in diff states. i moved because our hometown didnt have much to ofder me. But he has a steady and very.good job at the university there. So its hard for either of us to just pick up and leave. It makes more sense for me to move back because I have not started my carear yet amd am still in school, but again I left for a reason. He tells me it is always an option for me to move back with him. He wants me to, but he also knows and understands why I moved and he wants me to do what I came out here to do. I just feel like if I dont move back then it mAkes it look like I dont care as much or I dont truely love him but I do. I have alaways loved him, but he originally didnt. I wasnt going to hang arouns for someone who was never going to love me. I didnt expect him to change his mind when I moved. It has made it so complicated and stressful. Do I follow my heart or do I do whats right for me first? Is wrong that I want to find myself and get my life together for a startva life with someone else? He has his life together, I dont want to still be piecing my together. Im not asking him to wait, but if we love eachoher then the love will still be there in acouple ywars. And if we havent moved on then we can pick back up, right? Or do I follow my heart before all is lost?
Wow this is a hard decision choosing between the one you love and your future. If I were you I will work on my future because you are young and if it's meant to be, he'll wait and then you guys can be happy together. I know this is hard but I think you should focus on your future. If it doesn't work out, just know it wasn't meant to be and maybe along the way a bettee guy will come along. After all, everything happens for a reason.