I hate how I wait up for him to get on and when does, he's always tired. I mean when he tells me that, it just kills the whole mood. It makes me not want to talk to him anymore because I feel like he's obligated to talk to me just to make me happy. Id rather he not talk to me at all. Otherwise it's just sad. When we get the chance to Skype, he doesn't looks genuinely happy to see me. It's just like "oh hey we're skyping". It's like he doesn't even enjoy our Skype dates and he only does it just to please me. I mean at times when we chat he really does seem to love me, but then again it's just messaging. But when it comes to skyping I don't see anything. I honestly don't know if your feelings are true. He says he love and miss me but it doesn't show. Sure I know he has work but he has time to rest up. But no matter how tired you are, when you speak with someone you love, you immediately light up. You have all the energy because you feel immense happiness when you finally get to talk to that person. And when I see how tired he is, I can see his feelings aren't as strong as he says it is. We only get each other for a couple of hours and all I ask is for him to at least show some energy. Show that he's actually happy to talk with me. It hurts giving so much of my feelings to him not having them returned. Let me go, be fair with me if you don't plan on giving me the love I need. He tells me to wait. I've been waiting, and it's really stating to get so hard when I don't even see him putting real effort. Sure he gets on to talk to me but it doesn't feel like he's happy talking to me. It feels more like it's a routine for him that he has to do. I'm beginning to question where is the man I fell in love with. Have we reached the end of the honeymoon stage and are now just used to each other. Don't get me wrong, whenever I see him, his messages, I immediately light up, I get butterflies when I'm with him, I think about him all the time. But I fear yhe has already moved on from that stage and he's tired of me. (P.s we have been together for a year and two months, we're in a long distance relationship for 9 months, we are both 19)
I am sorry to say that it seems just like my story. I was also in a long distance relationship for 1 year and 5 months. Everything you described about how your bf acts, is everything my ex used to do. He just skyped as his routine and he never showed any excitements to see me like he used to in the beginning. And it have hurt me terribly. When i used to share my feelings about his behavior, he would say that he will change, but it never happened. Sometimes, he would tell me to wait but he wouldnt show up. I felt so much pain seeing how uninterested he was just before he left me. Yes, he left me. I have always felt that the love from his side was fading away, while my love so getting stronger for him. So what i am trying to tell you is that, the love from his side is fading away. And pretty soon, he might just leave you. I am saying this out of my experience. The guy i was with was my first love. It has been 5 months since he left me, but it's still hard for me to get through my days. Trying talking with him about how you feel when he shows no love and tell him what needs to change. Anyways, i wish you all the best.