I love her.. but hurt, and lost her
I love this girl SO much.. We dated for over a year. Had many hard times together and helped each other through a lot. Now my parents are being harsh and wanting me to find myself.. Since we graduated last June. I broke up with her for them.. A few times even. But not for long. My parents finally said it had to be a month or longer. Tried that.. But didn't suffice for them. And now actually tried building myself as a person. Feels great. But kills me that my girl wanted to be with me. Felt like I wasn't fighting for her. During the midst of this.. Me trying to show her I care, yet feel like my parents are sorta right. But that I still love her.. She went out and got drunk. That hurt me so bad. Cause she promised.. And she knew how I felt about it. She felt terrible.. We got back together but that made my parents frustrated and home was hell. We broke up again cause it wasn't working cause my parents. I gave up.. Got depressed, even tried chatting with other girls.. And almost sent nude pictures back and forth with one. But I didn't.. I stopped myself cause I love my girl so much. I told my girl (even though we weren't together) what I did. And she got so hurt.. And was disgusted with me.. That blew over. But then later after we're not together, again, she drinks again cause she is sad.. Feeling like I don't want her.. Or she isn't worth me fighting for her.. And while she's drunk.. An ex boyfriend of hers starts to finger her.. She lets it happen cause she's drunk and sad. But is thinking of me while its happening. And how it doesn't feel right cause its not me. So she cries and tells him to stop.. And says how wrong it was to let him even though they're still friends.. I find out later... And am hurt so bad.. But turn right around and make sure that she knows I dont think she's whore. And that I love her. And I know it was emotions from me that caused it.. We meet up a couple times after that.. And kiss, make out...etc. Then she says, again, how she thinks my parents are wrong.. And that it won't work.. We can't keep secret from them. We argue, I'm sad.. I end up taking pics of my dick and send them to a girl asking for them in the UK. I didnt do it cause I care about her.. I did it in a state of brokenness and pain.. And didn't really think about it.. But then realized how bad it was.. So I tell my girl.. And she's so hurt... And now.. Where I am.. She says she's done with me. That I don't need to say sorry to her again.. But to myself. Yet I know she loves me.. I've known we love each other the whole time. Ever since the beginning.. Why do we have to so these things... And what do I do next?
your parents are right you should move on,this girl needs serious counseilling just be her friend
That's not a very helpful response.. I said I love her. I know I do. There's mo having to question whether I want to be with her the rest of my life. I was asking what I should do now. (Including all that.)
should I wait..? Should I be strong like I want to be. Be the strong one for her. That's what she needs. A strong man. Should I try again with her later in life if I feel it's right and I feel like I can do it then..?