Over the last 4 months I got really close to a handsome guy in the office. He works in another department, but we share same premises. I have to cross his bay to go to my working area. We both are married with three years of relationship. He has a son and I don't have child till now. We used to share non-veg jokes, talk non-veg at length, do flirting, shared our personal lives like sex life, sex life, girl/boy friends before marriage, new crush, office gossip etc.. There was no single day when he did not talk to me after office. We did not talk to each other in the office, as we don't want office people to make it a gossip. So, we used to do watsapp and then talk after office as he drives for around 2 hours to home and I live near by office and my hubby used to get free late. During our talks, we realized that both of our married sex life was very low. But we never wanted to have any feelings for each other. He loves his wife a lot and I also love my husband a lot. After some days, we had a office party and we both drunk a lot, we got hooked up, he touched me all over, and i was numb, but i liked it. But we weren't able to have sex. This incidence was noted by somebody in the office and it became a talk about. So, we decided not to even say hi to each other in the office and ignore each other. But, we wanted to have proper sex and finish off the fire that we had. I went to one of his apartment and we did all possible things. This is my first instance when I had good sex with somebody. Before this, I only had sex with my husband, which was not satisfying at all. I tried to conceive after two years of my marriage, but I wasn't able to do, so I saw a doctor, and she told me that I am virgin till now. I shared all this with my coworker, so I wanted to have an sex experience, and he gave me. After that day, we used to talk to each other and I asked to meet him normally, but he said no as he was busy. He started to ignore me after two weeks of that day. Then slowly he stopped talking to me, stopped messaging me, stopped even to say hi to me, in case we cross each other in the office. But he used to say hi on watsapp on and off after every two or three days. I felt irritated, ask him the problem, he says there is no problem, I asked him why are you ignoring me, He said, we should give it a thought, I got really angry and said you should have done it before. But he said that I'll get senti on him, so he wants me also to think about it. I asked him, if you want to ignore, ignore me completely, don't come on and off to say such a formal hi hello. I don't like your formal face. He decided to ignore me fully. Then we stopped messaging, talks, even if we cross each other, we don't look at each other. I was waiting for him to be normal as I always wanted to have a friend like him, which we decided before as well. It is really difficult to stay at the same premises and ignore a person whom you have slept with.
He never contacted me after this. After two weeks I messaged him with a hi. He replied, we talked in the evening. I asked him the reason for ignoring me and not meeting me despite me asking him a lot of times. He said I asked him to ignore me, and he can't meet me as he can't resist me and he does not want to get physical with me at the moment. I told him even I don't. He said I can get sentimental on him and put him under sexual harassment case so he ignores me. Everything is so confused. Now, He never say hi to me and always at my disposal. If i contact him, he talks to me otherwise he is numb. I can't understand what does he wants to do. We started this relationship with a lot of ifs and buts and whenever i used to put my foot back, he hold my hand and take me near to him. Now he does not even want to be a friend. I don't know what's happening in his mind. If I ask him, he says everything is alright, there is no problem. Please share your suggestion. Do i pursue him or leave him, but i don't want to leave a friend like him. What do i do to get him back as a normal person.