I need some passion
I am in a really confusing situation and its making feel crazy. I was with my ex for a little over 4 years, she was everything I had ever wanted or dreamed of in a life partner. We moved all around the country together with our jobs and eventually the economy caught up with us and we had to move back to TX. When that happened I was unable to find a job that paid as much as the previous positions that I held...long story short, I fell into a pretty dark place, was depressed, gained weight, and lost a lot of joy for life that I had before. I never expected to lose the love of my life but she did end things and that was almost 3 years ago. Since we have been apart, we have kept in contact and a few times we have hooked back up sexually but nothing has ever came back out of it. I love this woman with all of my heart, even though everything she's put me through. Now I am in almost a 2 year relationship with someone and I do love her, but I don't think that I will ever feel for her the way I did for Alicia, even though I have cut all ties with Alicia. Recently it came to my attention that Alicia is going to be moving closer to where I live now and that she thinks that if she does some grand gesture its going to get me back. Ever since this has been told to me, she is all I can think about. Its also hard not to think about her now bc the current relationship I am in has its own sets of problems. I just want the passion to be ignited in my life again, and I know who can do that for me, but I am scared to give her my heart again. I have no idea what to do, I love my girlfriend, but there is no passion there, and I thrive on passion. What is a girl to do?
Stop lookin for others to fill your life with passion.
If you knew yourself as a person, and were happy about who you are and what you are doing, then you would not have to ask other people what to do.
But - for goodness sake - be honest with your present GF. Let her go until you find yourself.
Have to agree.... this Alica is the past....focus on your current relationship..... do not let the past hurt your girlfriend.....