Emotions running high
So basically, I'm 17, I'm currently in a 2 year relationship with my boyfriend. I love him so so much but for about a week now, I just keep getting so annoyed and angry at him that we argue so much! And basically I just cry every single night because I feel bad and it's taking a strain on our relationship. I've got to the point where I'm just so emotional all the time and I find it hard to believe he even still loves me anymore even though he tells me every day. I look upon him as this perfect person and he gives me everything and anything I could ever ask for, but I just think so little of myself and I just feel so down all of a sudden.
This is so different to the normal me. I'm always laughing and joking around but I'm a suffer in silence type and I just feel so down about everything and I just don't know what to do anymore.
I am on my period yes, and I am also on the pill, and I thought pills were supposed to help with hormone control? I feel like mine has sent them off the scale and should I change it? I don't know. But basically, I feel like shit and I cry every single day over, I'm not quite sure what exactly.
You said: "I just think so little of myself and I just feel so down all of a sudden."
It could be hormones, but most likely, it's self esteem.
The years that you should be exploring life, maturing, and getting a lot of experience, you spend involved with a young man. And he is your world.
Talk to your Dr. about these feelings. And find a way to learn to be your own person, not so involved with one guy at such a young age.
If you two are constantly fighting lately... speak up about it. See what you can do to try and make things work better.
Fights do cause strain on relationships, and can break both people down. If you two try to get to the end of it, then maybe the fighting will cease.
Just remember that even through the fights, he is the same boy you love, and you're the same girl he loves. It's important to not lose sight of that.
I think all of the fights are having an impact on your mood and your selfesteem, and maybe they're impacting him as well. Try talking it out with him, it can relieve the a lot of the strain on the relationship.
But don't let yourself think so little of who and what you are. You need to give yourself some credit, hun. You may have trouble smiling right now or have trouble seeing your self-worth, but there's someone out there who you make smile, and who sees how amazing you are.