Hi. I'm new to this forum, so I apologize ahead of time if I'm rambling.
So, before my current boyfriend, I was dating a guy for a year and a half, and we had an amazing relationship, save a few problems, but after a while, these problems got to be annoying. Some of these problems were him not replying to my texts, him ignoring me for his games (we're both only 15), and the distance that was starting to come between us. I talked to him about theses problems several times, but he barely tried to fix it, so I eventually got annoyed with him and just broke up. But here's where the problem starts. About a week and a half before I broke up with my now-ex, I started to have feelings for another guy, who is now my current boyfriend, which he eventually told me that he shared these feelings for me as well. This lead to him asking me out on a date while I was still dating my ex, but I said yes to him anyways, because I was planning on breaking up with my ex anyways. I broke up with my ex a few days later, and then I, stupidly, went on the date with my now-boyfriend, the day after.
After about half a week, I realized that I still had feelings for my ex, and I told my ex this, but also that I wanted to get back together with him. I planned to break up with my boyfriend, and get back together with my ex. But after a few weeks, I realized that I was starting to fall in love with my boyfriend, so I forgot my plans to break up with him. My ex eventually asked about this, and I told him the truth, but also that I stilled loved him as well. So my ex got mad, and started acting a bit cold towards me, which I guess I deserved, since I broke his heart twice.
Now, it's about two months later, and I'm starting to realize again that I still have feelings for my ex, even though my relationship with my current boyfriend is going great. I feel like I can't completely trust my boyfriend, unlike my ex, who I could talk to with almost anything, and I'm starting to think that I broke up with my ex over stupid reasons that easily could have been fixed over time. I want to tell my ex this, and that I still love him, but I still love my boyfriend, and I know that my ex will ask about him. But if my ex does ask, I don't know what I would tell him. I really feel that I shouldn't have broken up with my ex, and that, in a way, me and him are meant to be. I just can't stop loving him, and every time I think about the memories we have, I start to cry because I miss him so much, and I start to think about how happy we were, and I fall in love with him all over again...
I really need advice. I have no clue what to do... Please help.
You are still young as are developing experience, impulse control and the knowledge of who you are as a person. Jumping from one boy to the next is never a good idea. An option for you could be to tell them both that you are a young woman and want to casually date whom ever you decide to casually date. Dating is an interview to determine who you are most compatible with and may want to begin a long term life partnership with. this interview could last weeks, months or years.
I would recommend casually dating both and maybe more as well. You do not know who you want to be with. And letting them each think that you do know 100% is making you appear false and is going to cause you to lose both men. It is best to be honest and tell them that it is too early in your life to settle into a committed relationship and that it is apparent to you that you do not have strong enough feeling for either that would cause you to choose one over another. You do find both to have great qualities but you need more time with each to make a decision.
15 year old boys are not capable of relationships. Playing video games and ignoring texts are just a few of the things that they do, because they are not ready for women in their lives.
Please cut back on the "love" talk. Try to be more casual and use this time to develop yourself as a woman - without being tied to a young immature guy.
You, too, are having a hard time making decisions. That tells you that you are not ready yet, either.