My dilemma: Which one !? What to do?
I have been with my boyfriend Cameron for several months and he's great most of the time. But when he doesn't get me attention or upsets and angers me, I go to my ex Ryan for comfort and to cheer me up. Cameron gives me what I want and need and he goes to school with me. But our relationship isn't the best we fight a lot and our parents basically hate each other so it causes us not to be able to see eachother outside of school and church which I hate. He doesn't really care. I feel like he doesn't try when I need him to.
On the other hand Ryan is literally the perfect guy for me and he is one person who actually understand me because our parents have similar behaviors. Problem with him he lives a hour and a half away. And I've never met him in person, but before you start thinking red flags, no he's real I've seen him we've skyped and I've even talked to his family. I've known him longer than my boyfriend and my family actually accepts him.
Lately I've been thinking about Ryan a lot missing him and trying to talk to him reliving old memories. But we both know we can't be together distances is to hard on us. It's hard to be without a physical connection so this year I will be getting to see him for the first time and I'm super excited but cameron has a problem with letting go. I've tried to break up with him then I realize I want him cause he gives me what I need. And if I break his heart he starts cryin and I can't handle people crying so I go weak and get back with him. I do love him I actually do but our relationship is hard. Mine with Ryan as hard, just the distance.
So which one? What should I do?
May I ask your ages?
This isn't the biggest deal since we're teenagers but I need advice.
My boyfriends 14
And my ex 16
Sounds to me like you need to let Cameron go. You say "Cameron gives me what I want and need" but if that's the only good thing in your relationship, then why are you with him? It sounds like you're with Cameron just so you can have somebody physically there for you. It also sounds like you're using him, and once he realizes that, I can't imagine he will be happy about it. I say, if you REALLY think "Ryan is literally the perfect guy for me" then make it work with him. You will be happier. Long distance relationships CAN WORK, as long as you both want them to!!!