Im a high school student,taking online classes because of my anxiety and at the moment I have no motivation for anything.
For awhile, I thought "I want to die",but now Im not sure what I want. Im failing my classes-not because my grades are bad, but because I have no motivation to do the work that is so easy. I find it so useless, and I know it may just be a 'phase' as some have said but, I cant help it if Im not motivated, I cant help it if Im tired and just confused.
I dont know what to do, I dont have any life goals to try for, I just kinda want to put my life on pause or something? Im scared that I will never make something out of myself- but oddly at the same time, I dont want to make anything out of myself-I just want to be.
Apart of me really thinks that maybe I should just stop and leave, I feel like Im just being dramatic- but its been like this for years, so I question if that's really the case.
Anything would be nice, I just dont know.
I'm 34 and only just found what I want to do with my life, I'm glad I waited and took the extra time out to relax and enjoy myself instead of rushing into a career and family life..you have your whole life to do what you want, BE who you want to be.. there is no time limit, it's your life, no one elses, enjoy it as you see fit.. if that bothers other people then tough. You will find what you want to do at some point, don;t rush it just because everyone else says so or is doing so.