Lately I've been feeeling quite lonely, sad and unmotivated. I think it's been a build up of things. When I was 16 I was sexually harassed for a period of a year by a friend of mine. I never told my family and although I do feel like I have come out the other side of it, it still affects me every single day.
Relationships have never really worked out either, I've been lead on, cheated on and just really always been made feel like I was worthless by any one I've been with.
I also feel unmotivated in what I do.. I hate this because I have always been so passionate about my studies and have worked hard for the past 6 years to get where I am.. and suddenly I just can't concentrate anymore and I don't know why.
All of this has just made me feel quite lonely as I hate bothering my friends and family with things like this, especially as many of them don't know about most of it.
Anyway, writing all this out has helped.. thanks for listening.
You have to be brave my dear. Life brings many ups and downs. We just need to face these problems bravely. Just concentrate on ur present and future and stop worrying about your past. U can't change ur past, and u will meet many mean people in future. Don't bother about them. Just concentrate on ur bright future which u will have for sure.
I would suggest you first, tell someone you trust about the abuse. I know it is hard, and no, it won't be fun. But it will not bother them. If they are your friends, they will want to help you. Then, try to get some mental health counseling. (I am a counseling student, and I think it could seriously help you.)If writing out this post has been therapeutic, imagine having someone listen to you and empathize with you and help you make a plan to get your life where you want it to be. You can do this, you just need some help. We all do. Please reach out for it.
just try to leave past behind . u have struggled a lot to come here but again ur past is coming to ur mind and spoiling the things which u want to do . because of this u r not able to concentrate . I know its hard because i am in same condition , cause of some personal issues i am not able to concentrate on things which i must do and spoiling my life. you are at initial phase. just keep urself busy in what u njoy to do and make new friend ..meet new people ..try to learn new things such as craft ..develop new hobies ..it HeLPs A lot... trust me ' i know ,its hard to forget everything once but try to forget that u have sm problem , njoy ur life in ur term . dont give importance to ur bad past.. treat urself for what u have archive.