Lesbian relationship after 5 years being together Now were far apart
Me and my girlfriend have been together for 5years now just recently she went to another state to get some distance from us because of all our problems she is staying with family that she hasn't seen in 18years she has 2 daughters 1 that went with her and her little girl that lives over here with her father because they share custody the whole Idea was for her to get away for a Lil bit and then come back because of her daughter and me her plan was never to stay out there for a long period of time but Now that she has been out there for almost a month she has different plans i don't know what to think or even do about it I'm kinda lost considering she has her little girl over here and that was our plan in the beginning I don't know what to do and I cage handle being away from her this long and I don't know how long this long distance is going to last when there's no trust between us because of previous stuff idk it's hard because I'm in love with her and I want to be with her and she says the same so I'm really just confused and don't know what to think or do??????
The reason you're confused is because her words and actions aren't gelling. Unlike yours. Because here you are, reacting like a woman in love, which means finding the now-four week separation unbearable thus wanting her back now-now-NOW and saying so.
Saying that, however, it IS slightly easier to be the 'leaver' rather than the leavee' because, being stuck with the usual routine, you don't have the constant distractions of newness like she does as makes time fly more (including family with whom she has a LOT of catching up to do).
Surely it's too soon to be panicking, though? I mean, it's hardly likely she's going to abandon her younger(?) daughter, is it. And it *has* only been a month (despite the 4 week mark is when the 'cold turkey' really starts to *feel* a long time to the lover). So I would say that, at least, should be your source of reassurance even IF you can't quite believe at the moment that you're enough of a puller on your own (I'm sure you are). In other words, with such precious cargo as her mini-me still awaiting re-collection at the very least, I don't think you need to panic at all. Strange, then, how you're somehow being given the impression you perhaps should?
Is she getting satisfaction out of torturing you with not knowing and her not telling you precisely enough? Is this satisfying a need on her part for post-fight revenge?
She's either really enjoying the break from routine and not quite ready to put an end to it (yet at the same time, incapable of making as firm a decision as to put a date on it) or is 'accidentally-on-purpose' leaving you wondering. Deep down, I'm sure you know which (because only you know how much the fight or issues surrounding it upset her). So, WHICH? (Or perhaps a bit of both?)
PS: *No* trust? What - none? You SURE-sure-sure about that? She seems to trust you, doesn't she? I mean, she MUST do if she'd knowingly risk pissing you off this much whereby you *could* for all she knows call the whole relationship off, right? So evidently, then, she must know you WOULDN'T. Correct? In which case, she's not failing to care, she's just SULKING, still. Does she tend to sulk a lot after fights?
PPS: It could be that the first 2 weeks were her sulking, with her having only this last fortnight started to get properly involved in her surroundings and relatives, meaning, to her, she feels like she's only been there a couple of weeks?