Tired of the rollercoaster
I have been dating this guy for over a year. I was honest with him in not wanting anything serious for a little while, as I was still hurting and getting over an ex that would still contact me. I lost my job and it was convenient to move into my boyfriend's house. Even though he welcomed me in, I had told him that I still would like to be open in my other male relationships. He said it would be fine, just let him know if I want something farther with anyone or sleep with them. This didn't work so well, even though I was honest. There was a lot of turmoil until I finally realized that I am in fact in love with him. I found a job I really like but after two months I broke my foot. My boyfirned has been helping me with this situation, but since we are together all the time, we end up arguing. Just about every 2 weeks he tells me it's over and that I need to move out. This gets exhausting, as he knows I have no income and nowhere to go. It's like he dangles this subject over me, and I am getting tired of it. Recently, I was depressed and lonely and started to interact with my male "friends". He went through my phone once again and found out that I had called an ex fling. He assumed that I slept with him and told me the same thing..get out and slandering me. I do have to mention that it gets exhausting for me because he is a treated bipolar and it takes very little for him to get upset. The fact is, I only called the ex fling but got voiocemail and didn't even leave a message. I feel that I did nothing wrong. I don't know what to do.. any suggestions or comments will be appreciated. Thank you.
I believe you need to decide what you want and stop this emotional roller coaster that "you're causing". Basically you're using him, which is wrong. Did you really believe that he would really be fine with you "interacting with your male friends"knowing he's bi-polar and is easily upset (really)?
Just because you can take take advantage of him you should't. Trying to have your cake and eating it too doesn't always work out.
You've been dating for over a year, you refer to him as your BF, you're living in his home, depending on him financial. So decide if you're going to commitment to this relationship, if not then get a job and make arrangements to live elsewhere. You were not committed in the very beginning, so after a year it time to be honest with him and yourself.