My dream is gone
well to begin i would like to say that im a really smart student !! there is this school that was made to receive all the good students under one roof! it's called LPBT !i wanted to go there so baaaad that i did everything i could to pass the final exam and go there.
the day when the result came , i was sleeping. suddenly , my mother showed up and waked me up from a really good dream to pass me this aufful news . her words were :" wake up and see what u've done to u'r self " an then i realise that i didn't pass the exam wich means that i won't study in LPBT !!! i was so chocked that i didn't know what to do : should i cry ? should i get sad or mad ?
i just couldn't keep my eyes from releasing those tears . i couldn't stop blaming my self since then !!
Imagine how aufful that day was . i just wanted to be a better person , go to the best school , study with better students .... i didn't know that one day i'll be handeling this kind of situation , i mean , i didn't know that one day i'll fail in the most thing that i was good at my whole life ... i couldn't take this failure
well now im a little better but that pain inside me didn't desepear .. i still think of it until this moment and i wanna know how would i get over it ? everytime i see someone who's studing there , i get tears in my eyes , my heart starts racing and my mind is so confused that i can't keep my self from crying another time... i just couldn't carry that pain.
you don't what it's like to try your best and you wish for something to happen but you don't succeed ! i believed in it and i wanted it so bad that i gave up everything to get it but it didn"t work. i keep telling my self that maybe it's good for me to miss this school but later i say : who am i kitting ? i've failed and i let my self down ... how am i suppose to live with this feeling of shame and pain ?
please help to get over this failure cuz i gave up !
So you didnâ€™t get into LPBT. Youâ€™re still you, right? You know you are smart and you deserve to be there, so thatâ€™s really all you need to get through this. I think what is most disappointing for you is what LPBT symbolizes in your mind. Not being there, in your opinion, makes you a failure. Let me share something with you, from one very smart person to another: you are not a failure. You did the best you could, and it didnâ€™t happen, but that does not make you a failure. You would be a failure if you never tried to give your life meaning. You donâ€™t need LPBT to define who you are. Think of it this way, through logic: Does every good student in the world go to LPBT? Of course not! Does going there make you a good person or a good student? No, you carry your intelligence and good character with you, regardless of what school you attend. If something doesnâ€™t work out, it can be very painful, but it will make you stronger so that you will be ready for other possible opportunities. If you donâ€™t like your situation, at least remain optimistic. Never stop dreaming about a great future! You will shine brightly no matter where you go! Find a way to improve yourself and your life to compensate for what you donâ€™t like about it. ABOUT PLANNING: Well, Plan A didnâ€™t work for you. Sometimes the best thing is a Plan B. Obviously, you are at a point where you need one. Got any ideas? Make a plan C and D, too. Set as many goals as you can, and see what you can do to make them happen. You may have to adjust along the way, but keep trying! TILES
thx that does makes me feel better ! i am still planning in fact im not just a smart student i am also a really good dancer and im thinking of joining a dance school . well the LPBT had a dance club and i didn't go to it but it doesn't matter as long as i keep dreaming and like u said moving to plan B or C . i know that i deserve to go there but it didn't work out for me and i gotta deal with it and keep moving on no matter what cuz i know that im a good student no matter where i study or where i go . but the problem is i feel like i let my mom down , my dad is cool with it but my mom still reminds me of it everytime i try to talk to her about schools. see the problem ? i try very hard to get over it but there are always something that reminds me of what i call : failure . i tried to talk to her , she listens to me but she keeps telling me all the time : IF u worked your ess you could pass the final exam and i'll be now subscribing you in the LPBT ....
well that's the only problem left to solve and thank you for your help !
Did your mom go to LPBT or something? She may be like that because she wants what is best for you, like your dad does, but she may have a different opinion about what is best. But if you can't go, you just can't go, no matter what she says. If, however,there is another way that you can get into LPBT, then you can try it out if you want to. No matter what, you'll be fine! Good luck!
yeah i think she just wants whats best for me ! well thank you for your help , i really appriciate it ^^