I just don't feel like I matter
My Fiance and I got pregnant early in our relationship. He made me feel special then now not nuch. I feel like I am just a duty.
That he only cares to put our son and us in a better place. My heart clenches when I see people kiss in public or hug in public. He doesn't kiss me unless I beg and he won't always then. Our only "loving" moments is sex.
I want to feel like I am his world... That our son isn't a mistake. The other day he told me. "If we hadn't had him so soon I wouldn't of had any."
He doesn't complement me, he tells me I'm ugly, but mostly playfully. He won't tell me "I love you."Only "love you." his mom says he has always been that way. I asked him and he said he just didn't say it. The other day he said that phrase to his mom. I cried.
I cry regularly he calls me names because of it. Am I being to needy? I just want to feel like he will fight for me. He will instead tell me to take our son and leave when we fight. Mostly about the way he is with me. I stopped bringing it up. He doesn't care.
I just wonder why when I try to leave, he stops me.
You are not being needy. It sounds like you just want affection and love from your fiance, which you deserve to have.
It doesn't seem like he treats you very well....calling you ugly even if it's "playfully" is unacceptable and mean. He also sounds disconnected from his emotions (doesn't want to say "I love you" or comfort you when you cry).
I think a lot of times we put up with bad behavior out of fear of change and being alone. Maybe you should think deeply about what you want from the relationship and then try to talk to him about what you can both do to make your union better. Tell him how upset you are and that you really want to work on things together. If he isn't willing to work on it, don't give up on your happiness. You only get one life and you deserve to have love in it.