Don't know what to do
I have a wonderful girlfriend with me now. However, these few months, I have been facing difficulty of erection. So I feel down about this.
Recently, I met a girl online. She is a Filipina escort. That reminds of my Filipina ex.
However, my intention is find confidence on the bed. I hope by doing making love with that escort, I will be able to perform better sex with my current girlfriend.
I have not met up her. I am in dilemma.
What should I do?
To add in...I have not met up her yet. What should I do? Also, I am not handsome and sexy. I just feel inferior.
you say you feel inferior : maybe you could take a look at why this is so - also : why would you want to go with a Filipina escort who reminds you of your Filipina ex ? what do you have with your ex that did not receive closure ? do you think an escort can help you with issues of self-esteem and love ? how is your relation with your actual girlfriend : can you talk with her about your problems ?
My inferiority comes in when my p does not erect as I desire in front of my current gf. I thought of getting an escort, it will solve the problem of my confidence.
Ex problem...I will elaborate later.
I broke up with my ex two years ago after a big fight over the phone. I suspected that she was cheating on me and that has led to the big fight over the skype (long distance relationship).
Till now, I blamed myself for such a big fight. At the same time, I have good feelings towards a Filipina. A day after broke up, I met a Filipina in a shopping mall in Singapore. That girl named A.
A sat on the table when I was eating alone in the restaurant. A asked me to share table with her. I agreed. I am shy in nature. That is why I kept quiet. But she initiated the conversation and both of us talked a lot. She also broke up with her boyfriend and she wants to have a trip overseas than in Philippines alone that is why she ended up in a shopping mall in Singapore (where I am living now).
After that, I accompanied A to tour Singapore. In the end, I sent to her hotel and she suggested me to put up a night with her. I agreed. In the end, we ended up on the same bed, shower together and had sex with her (both of us felt that it was a great sex). We cuddled each other.
In the morning, I proposed to her to become my gf (as I had great memories with Filipina). She did not say yes or no. She just said that, if she met up another guy, she would have done the same thing.
After that, we lost contact. I attempted to contact her but to no avail. After that incident also, I did have such incident with two other Filipinas.
Few months after break up, I have new gf. She is not a Filipina. But she is nice to me and I have great moments with her too. However, this few weeks, I have low confidence in sex. I did not perform and do not erect as it should.
And that leads to what I have now.