I don't find life as exciting and fulfilling. I keep my job, because I know if I lose it, it's going to be harder to live. Back then when I decide to marry, I thought marriage could give me something to look for when I return from work. You know the old picture of a husband returning to his home, welcomed by his wife, etc. Rather than having a support system, my marriage just add more burden on my shoulder. My wife seem unable to handle every little things and need me to help her with it. So when I got home from work, more work wait for me.
It's just tiring.
And despite all my effort, she lost interest in me and now I can't even have sex with her for years.
It feels like I keep on providing and giving. But I don't get any reward our of it. When its trouble, she will come to me (nagging, complaining, etc) with little thanks if I do something about it. When its fun, she'll share with her friends about it. I just got the bitter aspect of her life and her friends get the fun part.
Now, my son, well he loves me much. I'm the number one in his world. But as much as I love him, sometimes I'm too tired to be there for him. I still keep at working and such for him. But there are days when I just feel so tired that even his presence couldn't comfort me. Besides he had his share of being little trouble maker. These days, I found him lying and stealing little stuff, that just added more headache and heartache.
I'm thinking of a divorce, not that I plan to marry again, but at least it would lessen the burden. But then my religion says no to divorce. And as bad as it is, I think faith is part of the thing that keep my stand through all these bullshit called life. I want to give up on my responsibilities.
When I think over everything, I could say, I guess I'm weak and selfish jerk. I should change into a better person, etc. But I can't find any strength to do it. I don't know where to begin and I'm not sure if it's do any good.
Your son needs an attentive male parent. did you ever consider he is acting out for attention?
Your wife might be exhausted, too. Women who are tire are not interested in sex.
Why are you so exhausted? Why does your work wear you out so much you can't give anything to your family?
Consider getting a complete physical. It really sounds like no one is happy in your home, just not you.
Your relationship is what you make of it. Talk to your wife, just tell her how you feel and how you are considering a divorce. Perhaps that will wake her up. Be honest and direct. At the same time, make your relationship what you want. Be the example of what you want to see. If you want romance, take your wife on a date and go get drunk over some cocktails. If you want that impromptu gift, give her a surprise gift. If you want to have sex, hire a baby sitter or have your kid spend the weekend with relatives. Show her what you want and see how she reacts. Give it everything you have and then decide if you still want to leave.
As for your relationship with your son, all children are different. If you are persistent with your son...trust me it will all payoff when his old. Try not to let your relationship with your wife affect that with your son. It's very hard but don't give up on it. Every time i have a fight with my partner, i look at my son and say, 'I'm all he has'. Remember, you're the one that decided to have kids...so be a man and take care of your responsibilities. Do a project with your son.
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