Self medicating for depression and stress
I need some advice or help or something (I don't really know!). So, last year I tried marajuana for the first time, that was rather uneventful. I didn't really like it, but I also didn't hate it. After doing that for 6-9 months I was given the opportunity to try Es. I loved them, it was the first time I was happy in literally months (Suffering with depression). After giving it 5-6 weeks, I tried them again but this time I did too much and ended up in a bit of a mess (still an enjoyable experience but I was simply too high...). After this I was on the hunt for a hard hitting but more subtle drug. The best answer I have found so far is cocaine. I know right... Wanting a subtle drug and I go for cocaine...
So now I take cocaine on a regular basis, not a lot, just enough to get me very awake in the mornings and kill me anxiety. The main bit of advice I need is should I use cocaine (in small amounts) before my exams to wake me up, make me less nervous and keep me going for the whole exam times?
Many Thanks, apologies if it's a bit waffly, I don't really know what to say.
First of all, the drugs only make things worse. It's a temporary fix to a permanent problem. You should find someone you can trust who has been through drug addiction and has beat it. It will destroy your life. You are obviously young so don't waste your time on drugs. Reality is a bitch sometime but face your problems head on and it will make you stronger. You can find someone in church like a pastor or councillor who will gladly talk to you. Maybe even get into a support group. Trust me, get help before you are too far gone. Right now you have moved up to coca in and you will keep searching for more powerful drugs and combinations and it's a never ending search.