Being irrationally jealous over sex in my head
My partner and I have been together for a couple of years now, but at the time being we are not living in the same country. Before dating me, my partner was in a long-term relationship with person A, whom I knew, as before dating, my partner and I were friends. Eventually, when we started dating, we also started having sex, and all of a sudden I found myself being awfully jealous over practically nothing.
Whenever I think about my partner and I having sex, I unintentionally picture them having sex with person A instead of me. These visions are absolutely hideous, nearly disgusting and an instant turn off, and I don't know how to make them go away. They almost haunt me, every time I think of something sex related, they come up, and stay for hours and hours. I've never told my partner about this. I still have some time to cope with this on my own before my partner comes over, as I don't want to ruin our sex life with my stupid jealousy or whatever this feeling is. This issue has been with me for quite a while now, and I feel that I can't cope with it on my own. Simply 'letting it go' doesn't seem to help.
What GOOD comes from these obsessive thoughts you have about your man and another woman?
I would say that you have too much idle time on your hands, but I don't know a thing about you. Do you work? What else is going on in your life besides HIM?
These feelings are so hurtful to you - and it's been a long time for you to not feel assured about this relationship. What is going on (between you and in your own life)that makes you seek to want to dwell in this dark place?
Hey Susiedqq. That's exactly the thing - nothing good comes from this thought. That's why I'm trying to get rid of it.
I have a lot going on in my life actually, so it's not about time really. I come home late and rarely have the time to just brood in my misery. It just pops ups every now and then when my partner and I chat about things. It's just that this relationship is the best thing that ever happened to me and I don't want to lose it.
On a side note, my partner and I are both female. Her ex is male (she is bisexual). And that makes me cringe.