Depressed & anxious
I have been experiencing vertigo & brain fog for over a year . I saw many specialists who could find nothing physically wrong with me . I started seeing a therapist who believed my physical ailments were caused by stress .
Since this revelation I the brain fog & vertigo have lessened though I have become extremely anxious & depressed not wanting to leave my apartment . I stopped seeing the therapist as her theories were based on a strange school of thought which she believed were laws not theory's .
I am single without family & just a few friends who I cannot bore with my problems .
I suggest that you should keep a journal. And write to it your random thoughts and emotions every day, at the end of the day or any moment you feel this overwhelming vertigo and brain fog. Right now you are suppressing a lot of emotions, a lot of thoughts that you feel useless or filthy. And you don't know what to do with them. And you don't trust your therapist, you don't trust anyone, and this is causing anxiety. There is no stimulation towards your subconscious right now. And it is not a good thing. So, you have to start doing this by yourself. You have to connect with your own inner thoughts on your own. You can record videos, record your voice, or you can write them down. You are not comfortable with this?? You can always talk to your favorite picture or toy :) But I would prefer you are keeping track of your emotional progress.
After a while you will notice you are writing the same stuff over and over again. I don't really want you to keep a diary. I want you to write about what you feel about a certain intense situation, or something you can't get out of your mind. When you see something no matter how much you have written about it, it is still not going away from your mind. And you are not making any sense, it just hurts you. Plain and simple. This means there is something painful in there, and you are not facing the truth buried deep behind the excuse you keep writing about. And this is always something you think you are not capable of, or something you are holding on to, not to face the truth about yourself. But once you face the pain, let go of your excuse, you might feel horrible emotions. But that will pass. And you will start making sense again. And feel a little lighter.
I hope this works for you. You have to get your power back. You need to trust yourself before you can trust anyone.