Husband doesn't want to make it work. I've done everything to change but he always blames me for things i did in the past. is cold, dent want to make love, said he will take time to get over things. forgave him for sexting a random woman he met at a bar and met few times. broken my trust but doesn't want to win it back. the end of any discussion is the same, useless. fighting against myself of loving the same person who doesn't care about my emotions and acts cold and heartless. He doest like expressing, but even in actions he is doing nothing to make this marriage work. don't want to be with him at the same time don't want to leave him!!
You're just used to him. You are comfortable in this reality, not the situation, but the life.... because its where you have been for so long. Which is why you are having trouble deciding what to do. But you know you want to get a divorce.
Move out. Start all over.
Start the first year by being a teenager again, learning to define yourself and discovering the world, life.
A brand new adventure awaits!!
Dont just move out without contacting a lawyer, im not sure where you are from, but there are laws that can help you and hurt you depending on what you do.