One addiction to the next

I have been battling addictions since I was a child... I started smoking when I was 12 years old and then by the time in was 14 I was experimenting with drugs. My parents got me prescribed amphetamine salts because I did poorly in school and under the guise that the medicine was doing me good I became addicted to it and started abusing it because it was helping me lose weight and it did help my performance in school. I became a horrible person and my parents took me off the medicine cold turkey without realising the withdrawals I was having and as a result I started getting the pills from the streets and someone introduced me to ice. I was a speed addict from the time I was 16 until I turned 22- I finally cleaned up and I quit without rehab but I started doing other drugs to help me cope without speed. While I don't agree that marijuana should be considered a drug, I do believe marijuana can be just as addicting as prescriptions and other drugs and when would quit back and forth with speed, I constantly smoked marijuana to help me cope without speed or I would take various pills primarily in the benzo family to chill me out. Now that I have quit the marijuana as well, I still primarily purchase benzos and I am on the verge of alcoholism. I never thought my life could spiral this out of control. I just don't know how to cope and deal with things anymore without various substances and I don't know what to do anymore. Its to the point where I get anxious if I don't have alcohol now. If anyone has been through what I am going through how do you deal with your emotions while you are sober? How do you cope? I'm so tired of being an addict and I just don't know what to do anymore.

You really need to make an appointment to see your GP to tell him or her all of this. Can I ask why you haven't thought to do so already?