Lying online girlfriend
Firstly, I would like to clarify that I really hope no one judges me for this, but I have an online girlfriend. I will try and keep the details brief, but apologies if I do not. I have "online dating" this girl for just under a year now and things were going brilliant in the beginning, but as time progressed I noticed that she started losing interest from talking to me. This is because we did not talk as often anymore. She often says that she loves me and she plans on marrying me someday, after meeting me. But this woman can go a whole week without speaking to me at times and for someone who is insecure like myself, I am finding this hard to handle as well as being confused as to how you could love someone and plan on marrying them, yet rarely speak to them during the week. When I confront her, she is always makes excuses like I had no Internet. Seriously, in the 21st century no internet? She also deleted Facebook without telling me, until I confronted her. Is she playing me along? I will give more details if anyone asks me. I know for a fact she is not a catfish because we have sent voice-recordings to each and she has over 166,000 followers on Instagram.
Yeah this online dating stuff is really flakey.
If she were really serious she'd be trying to somehow meet you in person.
If you're insecure then you need to be talking to someone face to face and developing a relationship with a person who you can actually touch. Sure, online dating is a way to meet new people and possibly your future spouse, but given your circumstances, you're more than correct when you state that this woman's actions are not those of someone in love and someone who has a need to be with their loved one.
It's difficult to see how someone can state that they love you and plan to marry you when their actions say the complete opposite. Your post is your gut instinct starting to kick in and it's telling you that all is not what it should be. You need to listen to it.