So tired of everything
Everyday, I feel so exhausted, emotionally and mentally, it feels like I don't want to wake up! I feel useless, I've been buried this feeling everyday! And none of my friends or family tried to ask me if I'm okay, it seems that they don't care of what's happening to me, oh! I forgot to say, that my friends leave me, I'm a loner now, no one can ever talk to with these sad thoughts in my heart and mind :'( I wish someone will try to ask me if I'm okay, then I will tell her/him what's happening to me inside.I feel so blue,don't have the interest to do my task,and when I got home,people at home made me so depressed! They didn't even think or ask how's my day? Is there any problem? They just don't care! All the people who's around just ignored me! If I could scream at them! Hey! Don't you want to ask me if I am okay? Or I have problems? I'm so tired of everything! I'm so tired of hiding this painful feelings, I just want to sleep everyday.Please help me. :'(
Your family and friends are not Doctors or health care workers. Please don't expect them to know what to do with your feelings. They must feel very helpless.
See a Dr. ASAP. Tell him/her what's going on.
You sound like you want out of this life-style. That's a good sign.
...but unable to extricate yourself (yet), hence massive urge turned inwards = depressed, as in, starting to get, and, it being SO UNLIKE you, they haven't a clue how to fix the Superwoman that normally fixes *them*.
No such thing as a loner, just 'in between sets of friends to suit Pending New Me'. You no longer suit group A, you're not yet ready for so don't yet suit group B. But you will. It's just temporary. And perfectly normal for one going through a metamorphosis.
The doc will give you just the right amount of leg-up in terms of temporarily replicating all the relevant hormones that have downed tools. If they're what you need - they'll work. If they don't, s/he'll switch to the next remedy in line (that's how they operate...to save unnecessary greater costs, like counselling).