I must say, at 25yrs of age, still depending on family for tuition and allowances, its emotionally depressing. Don't just know how to cope with it all.
The shame of repeating the class or the shame of disappointment on the faces of family and friends.
I just need someone to talk true to me.
Had people come around saying its well, it would get better, but am I really convinced??
Please someone should help.
Well let's say you finish med school, will you pay back your parents? If yes, you have nothing to worry about. If things spiral out of your control, maybe you should consider another career pathway? Sorry, I know it's hard to switch. Just believe in yourself and trust that you can pass a year of medical school.
"I'm slow but that's because I'm bloody thorough, not a rush-job surface-skimmer". That's all you need to say to yourself and others. If they're 'sowing' double then so too will what they one day reap be double... that's how sowing works. That's what you CALL value for money when remembering they're one day going to need someone THEMSELVES to lean on and help out. Who better or more likely by then than grateful and appreciative you? So as I'm sure you can now see, there is no such thing as waste and no need for any disappointment on anyone's part (not that anyone else is complaining or I'm sure you'd have mentioned it).
It's all good, you don't have a problem, you have an advantage-in-motion which just feels crappy and LIKE a problem whilst you're still in the thick of it.
Put it another way: When doing a long-distance run like the 800m (on a 4 x 200m track), which of these two runner types tends to win?
1. S/he who nigh-on or actually sprints around the first three laps?
2. S/he who takes it slower and steadier in order to reserve enough energy for that all-vital, final 100m push?
Or this way: Which drivers are the most skilled?
1. The first-time test-passer?
2. The one who re-took the course and test once or twice or more?
Just answered the question for you. You're worrying when you should be seeing farther into the looming distance and seeing the hidden benefits of being a tortoise. But certainly, pressuring yourself, this case unnecessarily, takes up vital mental processing that could instead be left available for studying, retaining and recalling. Worrying, feeling guilty and feeling like a loser despite you're still only at the- sorry, YOUR halfway-round-the-track point, is therefore futile, unproductive, and just plain nonsense/meaningless. Maybe those that are set to pass first time also went from crawling to walking faster than you as well. Who cares? You still learnt to walk in the end, didn't you? Probably talked long before they did...that's usually how it works if someone's 'slow' in one area. Your own, natural, personal schedule is what it is. Stop fighting it and wasting precious energy and enthusiasm.
Lastly but not leastly, nowadays there are THIRTY-somethings out there, whether gearing-up, still, or not, that are still living with and off the parents. So I think if you're brutally honest, either you're just being impatient *or* your worry stems from somewhere else entirely with you just blaming this course progress because it's the only 'visible' thing TO pin your disquiet onto.
(5p, please. )
Really appreciate your advice and admonition.
Really have to brace up and gear up to be much more better daily.
Thanks once more.
Happy new year!!
Anyway - look at those lovely manners and that impressive integrity! Do you realise how many people *don't* finish/cap the conversation, let alone say thanks? You're obviously a sweetie so, trust me, and never mind that you can't see round this boggy corner of your path to the wild flower field - Fate has your back. The bog is probably what *feeds and waters* the field.
Do everyone a favour and come back to say so the minute you can feel you've turned that corner, if you please?