When in high school, I confessed to girl that I had feelings for her, and she agreed to start a relationship with me. We were both fine together,not obsessed, but stayed together when we could. At that time both of us were seeing other men, which means it was more of an open relationship. I didn't take it seriously until years later I can't but think of her, I called her back but she changed, she also moved to another country. I have a crush on guys regularly but it never seems to work out. I don't think of her that much either, but some days I can't help the thought that I want us back together and think of how perfectly we matched each other, I still haven't met a guy which I felt this way towards him. My question is what should I do? Is it better to move on and date guys? Or date girls? She keeps making me think that I love her because I might be a lesbian, but I don't think the idea of dating anyone else would suit me, it even sounds disgusting.