Snooping on husbands phone has left me an emotional wreck!

So, I've been happily married for nearly 4 years. 2 beautiful children. Youngest is only 12 weeks old and the reason I started snooping on my husbands phone. Although he's really attentive. Says all the right things, great sex life etc. The hormonal side of me made me look through his whatsapp msgs and I've found some awfully rude video clips that have been sent back & to, between him & a work colleague. The colleague is a man may I add and the clips are of women masturbating. They are quite jokey clips, only a couple of minutes long and have normal music over the top (probably to hide what he's watching if clicked in front of me!) I'm disgusted with what I've found but I can't do anything about it. I can't confront him because I can't admit I looked through his phone. I have so many things going on on my head. Like what kind of conversations has he had in work, to lead to the sharing of these clips. It feels so dirty and I feel I don't know my husband like I thought I did. And where the hell is he finding these clips. Is he typing specific things he wants to see. (That thought knocks me sick) He also deletes his history on the internet on his phone too! I know many will say he's just a blooded male etc etc but please be kind to me. I'm a post natal hormonal mess and i don't know how to move on from this. Please help. So sorry for the essay!! Thanks.

Thank you. I do think I am struggling a little bit with baby blues but I'm just disgusted in these videos and the fact he was sending them on Friday night, whilst I was putting our toddler to bed. He is a fab husband in every other way. But this makes me think he's very good at hiding things. Your right I need to concentrate on the good. I know it could be worse! Thank you.

It seems that it is bothering you a lot. Would it be worth admitting that you invaded his privacy to discuss? Only you can weigh the pros and cons in that situation. Hormones can be a beast, so watch for issues there, but I do not think you are completely exaggerating. You can't always help how you feel regarding a certain situation. Don't beat yourself up about it.