I just feel empty

im unmotivated, unfulfilled, not sad, not happy just empty nothing interests me like it used to, i dont want to write, i dont want to draw i just worsen myself by wallowing but i dont know how to get out like some force inside me tears me away from things i want to do and instead makes me sit and make myself feel worse im not productive, my time is spent on nothing, i have nothing to show for my time alive few friends, no real relationships alone i dont know who to talk to about it i pledge myself to listen to everyone but i dont know who would listen to me i dont know what i would tell them if i did have someone to talk to i worry people dont find me interesting or notable like im just a background character in peoples lives that i dont matter i dont even think im anybodys best friend, people come to me with problems but nothing beyond that i dont care about grades but theyre all that matter right now my idea of being happy just seems to be out of reach at every intersection i just take the wrong path, misstep constantly and i hate it, i just want to be happy i want everyone to be happy but it never works i either mess things up for myself or them if i could leave everything behind to be with someone i love id take it in a heartbeat because i cant stand the idea of living how i am now the rest of my life

SOunds like you are suffering from depression, which is a chemical balance in the brain. A doctor can assess this and prescribe medication. OFten the meds take about 20-30 days for maximum benefits and finding an interest that involves other people will also improve your feelings. Helping others in need through volunteer work is often a good way to meet people as well. I have suffered from depression for many years( it runs in the family ) but with the aid of meds, and forcing myself to help others less priveledged then myself, and listening to music daily, no one would know I was depressed. I hope these suggestions can help you. If you feel like hurting yourself as a result of your loneliness or depression, please seek help immediately.