Relationship shattered by my past

recently my partner found out about someone I have had sex with before him. but I didn't want to have sex with them, I didn't consent. when he asked, I lied and said it didn't happen. I don't know why, I was scared to admit it I think. it happened before I was with my partner I just still feel like I still haven't accepted it. he didn't believe my lie and I told him the truth. we are still together he just now says he feels 'different' towards me and he acts like he doesn't care. he still says he loves me though I don't know what to do. I have to wait for him to forgive me but I'm still struggling because I don't know how to cope that I have to be forgiven for being assaulted. I still love him so so much. I'm so worried that he is going to end it. I don't know if I should keep trying or let go

Yes he did,when we were first together he was happy to be intimate with me.

Try to fix it, don't give up on him. You know sometimes when we tell the truth about ourselves to someone, we start to notice changes in behavior towards us, even if there is no change behavior. We still nitpick the slightest deeds as a change in behavior. This is because we are guilty. He said he loves you believe that. What you should do. Show him more love, make him know your sorry, plan the best sex for him. And forget the part that you were assaulted. Most will say it's a story for the gods...