Affair

ive known a man i met about 3 years ago. just met up for sex because i knew he didnt want more. im a married woman and my husband as known about him for years. told me to delete his number or block him but i didnt. husband had been on date sites and all the trust as gone so thats why i have kepted intouch with the other man. so if my husband was to cheat then i will do it again. my husband said that maybe he should just let me stay intouch with him, now to me thats like saying he doesnt care one bit what i do and i have his blessing. why would he say this. no other man would put up with it and kick the wife out. he says he loves me but i think something as died in him for me and we were recently on a night out and 2 girls were messing around with a toy penis. he was looking over at them all the time and this really hurt me. he said another couple were looking at them too and that they were noisy you couldnt miss them. i told him they like the attention and he was certainly giving it to them. i think he enjoyed doing this in front of me and it ruined the night. he as always looked at other women when we have been out and its knocked my confidence. hes no brad pitt just a small ok looking guy so why as he treated me like this. is it payback for what i have done to him or just that he loves other women and doesnt care about the one he as.

Hi SUSIEDQQ. he said he didnt want to lose me and that he loves me so much and he just wants me to love him and to get on with life thats why he feels he as to let me still see this other man. i have to add he as had his prostrate taken out and he as to use a pump. he sometimes gets emails on his works phone in the evening and they can be different times they come in. he said its just work and i have never checked his phone to see if it is.