I don't know what to do

I'm sick of myself. Each day I wake up and hate how I look but here's the thing, people call me pretty. Down to strangers,my mom, sister and just about everyone and I don't see it! It's not some light insecurity, I promise, it makes me want to kill myself. Down to a bad angle or anything. It's on and off whether I think I'm pretty.One moment I feel like a goddess and the next I don't. I just wanna feel okay again and no I can't go to therapy. Please just tell me how to be okay. I have things I like and talent's but nothing can keep my mind off it! What should I do?

So - how come you can't you get therapy? And what is it you hate? Doesn't matter what anyone else deems you, does it. You want YOU to feel sure you look pretty. Here, you're not making that fatal mistake of looking at yourself before you've had time to wake up and de-puff properly, are you? How old are you? In your teens? Are you getting annoyed with your face instead of something else, something seemingly elusive? Or do you feel better and more in control of that something else if at least your appearance is cooperating if that other thing(s) isn't?