Basically I’m a fucking idiot

So of course with me being a teen girl it’s (dramatic pause....) romance!! I go to a rowing club (lame I know but im very passionate about it) and well, everyone who goes there ,apart from your truly, is very hot, to say the least. I am having girl (and guy) problems for instance, there this one girl and she’s kind and smart and beautiful but idk if she’s into girls like that and , also I had to share a mat with this REALLY HOT guy and it could barely fit me and we had to do a stretch where ,basically it was like we where spooning and my poor catholic schoolgirl heart couldn’t take it so I tuned as red as a tomato and everyone was like hahahah u like him so guess what I blurred out?? My painfully single ass went “I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND “ then showed them a pic of my girl best friend who I have been low-key-but-she’s-straight-crushing on for 2 years now WHY AM I SO FUCKING DUMB???? I will update but I need somewhere to vent