Question regarding relationships and older men

I have a bit of an issue. You see, I'm 14 (almost 15) and the only....ONLY men that I am attracted to are the ones that are 15+ years and or 10+ minimum. I being 14 in the United States legally can't do this, and I can not find anyone as well. I don't know what to do in all honesty. I'm in a relationship that I can no longer continue seeing as I faked it from the start to make him feel better. Help? Advice?