I've recently fallen out with friends for several reasons including their racism (not directed at me) and their aggression. But I've taken positive steps outside of work too. I've started a band with a few new people I've met and I'm trying to set up a meet up group in my local area. But I'm still spending any time I'm not at work (Where I can be painfully shy) or the two hours a week jamming with the band, alone in my room. I am constantly cancelled on every time I try and arrange anything social outside of this band and I feel so lonely and like my life is passing me by.
I'm coming off a year long course of anti depressants carefully and slowly. I'm quite chipper in person and I haven't admitted my lonelielness to anyone else in a long while. I just want friends I can see regularly, more than 2 hours once a week but I don't feel like people gravitate to me as a person. I feel empty and boring. Any advice anyone?
They ARE out there. You just have to find them. Sharpen your networking skills.
You are musical? Great! Volunteer or join a theater group or youth group who needs a person with musical experience.
Good luck. You must make this happen!