The betrayal

I used to believe I was't going to lose the person I once called sister, she was my best friend in the whole entire world because I don't know why everybody else likes to make up things about me in school and there must be people hating me everywhere I go... when i met her and get to know her I thought everything was going to be really easy and comfortable, that everything will be alright after me and her became sisters... I told her everything, she told me everything. But one day everything changed... Her crush told me something she decided to keep as a secret she didn't want me to know she said it, even when I told him that if she didn't wanted me to know it was better if he didn't told me, he did. And everything changed from there, she called me a sl*t! Can you believe that?! Really over 4 years of "sisterhood" and she's calling me a slut?! And that I was really easy to get when I don't even have a boyfriend!? I thought she knew me better than that! But I guess I was wrong... Not even her can think a positive way about me. In school they always talk behind my back, when I walk through the halls they just look at me and turn the other way just to fake they didn't saw me. When they tell me "I missed you!" "I love you! You are the best" "We will always be friends" etc. I get tired just to see them throwing these empty words to the air and hugging and looking at me like if I was just something and not someone. I thought my "sister" would get me through that but NOOOOO I always have to lose I can't have any other friends. I feel alone even though I am not because I have my family and maybe a few of you can tell me this is stupid but it's something that can destruct you little by little, mother says I shouldn't care about having people in my life other than them... My father says the opposite and my bro... My bro is just 9 he can't get it still. I've been bullied since I was in kinder no one ever wanted to be friends and when I got invited to do something they stole my toys told me to go away, that i was ugly a slut a horrible creation a monster too friendly to be real despicable useless etc. And nobody ever cared about my feelings, but when I try to explain someone how I feel because they ask and we have been talking for months and I feel we have too much in common and we can be silly together they.. ALSO TELL ME I AM TOO PESSIMIST ABOUT LIFE, THAT I AM WRONG, THAT IT'S STUPID, AND THAT I GET SAD REAL QUICK and I then feel so much more insecure about my self that I want to tell them "then... why did you bothered to ask"? But i just say Haha I know right? Because then if I say that it could get worst and worst...

Hey listen people are always going to talk its normal. Jealousy is a powerful thing and hats all it is. Look you seem like this really kind and caring person and you shouldn't change yourself to meet others expectations of you. If she means a lot to you pull her aside for a one on one talk ask her if its true and ask her why. If she says she said it and she and that's what she really thinks then she was never your friend let it go and move on. If she is truly sorry about she will apologize and then you move on and continue to be friends. The best thing you can do not for others but for yourself is forgive let it go and continue to live your life. You know who you are so what others think don't matter.

Jenay thank you so much I am going to try to fill up with guts and talk to her cause she WON'T TALK TO ME! D: I hope everything gets back like it was. Thanks for your support... I've been waiting for someone t answer to my problem for days!

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