I’m annoyed at myself

so basically been with someone for 5 months now, but there’s this 1 girl i met for one weekend a while back an i just can’t stop thinking about her and what she’s up too n etc, in very happy w my girl and i know she’s good for me. i just don’t know why i keep thinking about this certain one :/

(part 2) it was lockdown when i met the girl , so i feel like due to the bad time with lockdown it’s made me have fonder mems of it as she made me so happy at the time, most days i’ll sit there and think about her even tho im seeing someone new. i don’t want to end w my girl i really really like her, i don’t know what to do cos as far as i know these thoughts aren’t going away. me and her never ended properly and it made me feel like i got no closure so maybe i’m just wishful thinking that one days she’ll just turn up outta nowhere n be like hiya but aimt no way haha. basically i’m asking you all, why are these thoughts occurring when i’m happy with who i am, and what should i do about them.

You won't drop these thoughts, until you want to. Work on wanting to.